Excuse Me While I Kiss The Sky. :]

I think about you all the time.

All.

The.

Fucking.

Time.

I’ll look in the mirror and think of you.

Or hear something funny. That does it too.

Little things.

Big things.

Dreams.

Silences.

You’ve taken over my brain.

And I kinda like it. ;)

So, I know I’m a little late to be hoping on the Tumblr Thanksgiving Bandwagon, but here it goes anyway.

• I’m thankful for my my amazing friends. :)

Seriously guys, I’d be lost without you.

• I’m thankful for my awesome boyfriend, who just by chance is not an Alien(SOPHIE!). XD
• I’m thankful for my wonderful family and how we can make TWSS jokes at the table. ;)
• And I’m thankful to live the life I lead and for having the chance to be myself, because no one else can do it better.

I need to stop squealing when I laugh!

1. I’ve never kissed a boy and not regretted it later.

2. I’ve never been good at a sport.

3. I’ve never been to a state that doesn’t touch Oklahoma.

4. I’ve never driven.

5. I’ve never been good at math.

6. I’ve never been able to call myself skinny.

7. I’ve never liked wearing tights.

8. I’ve never fully understood people.

9. I’ve never done drugs.

10. I’ve never been able to play the piano.

1. Saying Fail. It’s old and unoriginal now

2. Getting on Facebook so much. This one’s self-explanatory. It’s a life eater!

3. Saying like all the time. It makes me sound stupid!

4. Chewing my nails!

5. Trying to be like other people.

6. Cussing so much.

7. Saying I’m fat. I’m not where I want to be, but I’m not fat.

8. Criticizing myself.

9. Saying things that aren’t nice. I mean, really? Would I want people to say that shit about me? Didn’tthinkso.

10. Saying things without thinking about it first.

11. Calling people mean.

High school is a time to find yourself, right?

Well, then why do I feel like I’m losing myself?

I look in the mirror and I can’t even find a trace of the person I was a year ago.

imaginelife:

So you know that feeling like you just want to crawl into a warm hole and sleep for like a week? And then maybe go back to the world completely organized and ready for all the shit they’re gonna throw at you, cause God knows they will?

yeah, well I do.

I’m not really even sure what I’m feeling, why I feel like this, or exactly how to cure but it seems my soul has melted into my heart and my emotions have been crushed to bits suffocated, and are now crammed in a dark, claustrophobic cabinet.

My brain is on overload cause things are being thrown at me and I dodge them easily but the thoughts are not so easy… I think way too much. I just need to like sit down and talk about it to someone, but if I do that I start to feel selfish.

Cause everyone has problems, and it doesn’t make mine worth hearing.

I need a break. Or a shoulder to cry on. Or maybe just some new contacts …

I just don’t know anything anymore, not even math :/

We needa talkk. :)

People ask me how I laugh so much.

I never knew, until today.

I laugh when I don’t know what to say.

People say something that makes me feel awkward, I laugh.

I don’t understand what someone says, so I laugh.

I don’t know what to do anymore, and now I’m laughing at myself.

It used to be, I like you.

And it was fine then.

But then it turned into I want you.

Everyone knows that wants aren’t necessary.

A little indulgence here and there. :)

And now, it’s I need you.

But, what the hell are you supposed to do when you can’t get the things you need?

“I could write my name by the age of three
and I don’t need anyone to cut my meat for me.
I’m a big girl now, see my big girl shoes.
It’ll take more than just a breeze to make me
Fall over, fall over, fall overboard, overboard.
Fall overboard just so you can catch me.”

-Ingrid Michaelson

This used to be me. I don’t know what happened. But, somewhere I fell overboard in the process, and I’ve never been happier. :)